Is what you feel, you really feel?

i wish i can take a glimpse into my future to see what is in store for me, so that i can change whatever i that i think is not good. Like what i feel previously may not be what i feel now.

Feeling is a scary thing. Feeling can be turned off just like that. It's like the feeling is no longer there. You may feel that there is... at times, but the truth, deep inside you no longer care if there is

I do wish there is some sort of miracle, i could make. But sometimes it takes a lot of hard work to make it happen.

I just pray that when things do come to the worse, i will be able to handle it. No matter what i must.